Back to school

I’ve never written a blog post before so bear with me if it feels like I am rambling. I’ve been thinking about what a good first topic to write about would be. This morning, it came to me. It’s actually something that every year, around this time, is top of mind. Every year since 2016, that is. Back to school.

It’s an exciting time. Picking out back to school clothes, school supplies, the excitement of a new teacher. Getting to see friends again that kids have missed over the summer. It is also something that loss parents are deeply missing. Seeing posts on facebook with back to school photos of children the ages your angel should be can be heartbreaking…

This morning, I dropped my daughter, Juliet, off at her first day of Pre-K3. I felt my eyes welling up not only because I couldn’t believe she reached this milestone; but at the same time because I was sad that I never had that moment with Adalynn. The start of every school year has been a reminder of that. I took such joy in picking out Juliet’s first day of school dress and in picking out her first school supplies. I couldn’t help but imagine what Adalynn would be like, entering Pre-K4 this year.

The school year is the start of the time of year that feels like holiday after holiday. Wishing all my fellow loss parents a gentle back to school season!